|Love me not
||[Feb. 4th, 2010|11:39 pm]
As I watch you and her being happy together, while I am truly happy for you...I know that seeing her with you stings deep inside my heart.
I don't know how I came to love you. I don't think we would get along. We don't have the same interests, and I'm not really attractive. I don't bring out the best in you or make you happy either.
I guess I misinterpret your kindness. It was silly to even think that you saw me as anything more than what I really was. I laugh at it until now. I wonder if you noticed I've been a little hurt even since I realized I misunderstood? You were worried, but what could you do?
When I met her for the first time, I wasn't sure if I was going to like her; not that it would really matter. At first, she didn't rub off me too well. It could be jealousy or she just didn't tick with me well. However, I have come to like her, and I now see even clearly why you chose her. She's great, and knowing that you didn't pick some jerk pleases me somehow.
She makes you happy, and why would I be cruel enough as to stop this? I know nothing about you. I just happen to like you. Possibly love you?
It doesn't matter. You're important to me, more than you think you know, and I'm okay with you not sharing the same feelings for me.
All I ask is that you allow me to be at your side as a friend.
I already knew. You told me you had plans to leave this area, and while it felt bad that I would probably never see you again I also felt some ease knowing you'd be gone. I needed to be away from you, and get my head straight.
"You told me to tell you when I was going, right?"
I nodded. "Thanks...for remembering." I managed to say.
You smiled. "I never forgot."
You ruffled my hair and walked away towards that girl. She smiles and waves back at me, and I give my best smile and wave back.
You two walk into the distance, and I tuck both my hands in both pocket and smile.
I'll miss you, you know, but we both have our own paths to walk on.
Maybe someday you'll cross mine? Or vice-versa?
I think that would be nice.
For now, goodbye my love. Someday, I will forget you as how you shall soon forget me.